well I am officially *registered* to begin the RCIA (Roman Catholic Initiation of Adults) - they’re the classes I have to go through to become Catholic. They’ll start at the end of the month. I’m really happy to be doing this, on so many levels, and I’m so looking forward to the classes.

I know some of you might think I’m doing this for “Larry”, but I’m really not. I am, however, very thankful for his guidance. It feels like he showed up like an old childhood friend when I was really lost, grabbed my hand, and said “Hey! You’re going the wrong way! Let’s go back this way.” His charity, kindness, and his love of Christ and of the Church have been very inspirational to me, and I’ll always be grateful to him for that.

Besides, I hardly ever talk with him anymore - he’s always so busy with his work. I have, however, been doing a lot of praying on my own, a lot of meditating, and a lot of reading. I still watch mass every night, and I’ve learned a lot - about faith, about myself, and about life in general. And I’ve come to some decisions.

I’ve made the decision to leave mydungeonspace.com. It’s just not where my interests lie anymore. hell I’ve been celibate for over a year now - and it’s not like I don’t still get offers, I do, from old lovers as well as wanna-be lovers. I just turn them down; I can’t see myself living that way anymore. Eventually, if and when I get married - I’m sure we’ll be anything but vanilla, but in the meantime, it just doesn’t feel right for me to be there, and supporting a lifestyle I no longer live.

I’ve told Robert and he’s not very happy about it. I told him I’m not abandoning him as a friend, I’ll still be there for advice if he needs it. And I’ll help him get some things situated before I leave. I think he understands why. I hope he does, anyway.

Closing doors is never easy, but change is inevitable - even for me. I’m truly happier than I’ve been in years, so I know I’m going the right way.